Me And My Headphones

I wish I had somebody to tell me I was enough I wish I had somebody to tell me life is rough I wish I had somebody to talk to when I wanted to see my own blood I've been looking for answers I can't find Life is a mountain I'm too afraid to climb Everybody tells me I'm a great guy I just tell them I think that's a great lie I cut myself because the pain reminds me I'm alive If you think I hate myself for no reason you clearly don't know me There's a bunch of them that you just don't see I pretend to be a good person but I know that I won't be My mind is a warzone and I'll never make it out Constanly being gunned down by my doubts It's gotten to the point where I don't even know what I'm talking about I wish I was happy and I bet your happy laughing at me I've been crying in the shower Who am I to convince myself that I have the power To help people get through there darkest hour While I'm shaking in the corner like a coward Look away from the medication I never use I hate to watch tv cause all I receive is bad news I'm not tired but I just want to sleep My life is suffocating I'd rather live in my dreams The knife I put in my skin is getting to deep This never would have happened if I had somebody to see That I'm alone and need someone to love me I have no motivation in the day And I can't take advice everything has to be done my way But I'm not confident in anything I ever gain I can't make it through the pain You can't tell me nobody feels the same I swear to god there has to be somebody who relates to what I say How can I be a positive influence when I have none I'm lucky I haven't shot myself with a gun I think about everything that I've done And I can't be proud of an achievement not even one I remember when I thought rap was fun Now I use it to run far away from the bad place I created in my head space I'm all on my own No one wants to pick up the phone I'm trapped in my zone So as I walk down the streets completely alone All I need is me and my headphones