Up At Night

All the thoughts I have in my head yeah they really keep me up at night Finally go to sleep and I'm having nightmares and there all about my life My body's getting weak and even inside of my dreams I can't get you outta my mind I've been fighting these demons and wars inside my head and I can't survive Life is like a dream Can't explain some of these things My demons screaming so loud I can't even go to sleep And if I do they tend to creep into my nightmares It's dark in here for anyone who might care Shake when I wake up I'm really that scared Don't really wanna die here Insecurities telling me not to fight fear Bad dreams simulating this bad year How I lost my first love and every little tear I'm really tired of dreaming of you My mind's getting addicted to abuse Cut or choke which one do I choose Tell myself lies and convince myself that there true My mental health is a game where every decision you make Is based off finding a way to win but you can only ever lose All the thoughts I have in my head yeah they really keep me up at night Finally go to sleep and I'm having nightmares and there all about my life My body's getting weak and even inside of my dreams I can't get you outta my mind I've been fighting these demons and wars inside my head and I can't survive 3:45 I woke up from a nightmare about my ex She was dating someone else she's gotten over me I guess It was a dream one day but turned to reality the next It always hurts worse when the person that leaves you is the person you'd least expect When I had that nightmare where you were with him I thought about cutting off all my skin I don't wanna live I hate this We're in the same friend group but I feel pushed to the side I try to smile but my frown can't hide Not ready for a relationship why'd I buy that lie And while I'm dealing with regret and the misery Your with him probably happier than you were with me Not really over you but I pretend to be Act like I'm alright without you loving me But that's okay cuz I always have my demons to comfort me All the thoughts I have in my head yeah they really keep me up at night Finally go to sleep and I'm having nightmares and there all about my life My body's getting weak and even inside of my dreams I can't get you outta my mind I've been fighting these demons and wars inside my head and I can't survive