Snow on My Night Stand

Ran on the asphalt Thought it was my dad's fault Talk to my mom once a week on the phone Future mirror in the past Can't see past myself I could be homeless on the street and wouldn't ask for help Never been like that Waiting till the nights black Sneak at my house with my friends uh and write raps But it was never half that amazing Restraints and failed expectations Loves conditional when family starts to lose patience Please let me know if you know what I'm saying. When your the opposite of what your portraying When your thoughts collide the people think you sound crazy When there's pain in the paint of the painting that you're painting Snow on my night stand I left the window open I left my window open Snow came in Living in a cave Until my mental caved in Steeling from the kitchen Anxiety on my apron I'm going to sleep with baby blankets till the day I start shaving Walk around face less Sleeping on the daily Smiling felt like a felt like a sit up And sitting up wasn't painless Aaron went away I skipped school for a day Look at people around me evaluate my situation We have the same just because we are in the same simulation A solemn simulacrum But not Magic came my way you see I waited for a long time To see the rain After the sunshine But the rain never existed This makes a 13 year old question there existence Trying to focus on the president well peat rock is reminiscing Associations Building walls in my mind like a prison Till the only thing I can believe is my experiences What are dreams worth if you can't fall asleep when you got um I got 99 problems formlessness ant 1 one Feel like I'm stuck, I don't need a tab under my tung Why do we tie this not of thoughts for it to come undone Collapse on the sidewalk No motivation to get myself to school No motivation I cannot eat my food No motivation I cannot even move You can't justify life I'm just as confused as you Snow on my nightstand I left my window open I'm done with saying words it's exhausting Ant No book or video that's gone so I feel life problems