Summer Rain in the Middle of Fall

Adopted so many personality traits I lost myself So will you love the person behind that Climbing for the climax Searching for a feeling that I don't know where to find it Can't find where my mind at But what's the machine that's trying to find I'm looking at myself Got nothing more to hide behind Thought I was redefining Who I thought it was And then I realized Finding myself is who I became Do you love me more I love it when the rain shine and I love it when the sun pour Shorty do you love me more I can give you my love then I can give myself Then I can give myself Can I forgive myself For the waste of time Dyslexic so learn to read between the lines of life Been born once but I feel like I've died twice Certain points where I feel like my mind was wiped I reached a breaking point my thoughts shatter into aBolivian And that created the pool I'm now swimming in Sometimes I try to hold on but they keep coming loose My thought process like spelling words in alphabets soup I just need you to understand Because I feel alone in the way that I'm living this life I'm at the edge of a cliff And on the other side is either insanity or enlightenment I don't have any more fight to give My body has gone limp I'm going to go where the river takes me My entire life I've been called crazy Touch20 bands I don't need no validation My priorities are straightened If I die horrible and painful I'm a die smiling with My grills in You ain't got a feeling But Let me know if you feel this Let me know if you know how to feel Without a pill Maybe to Real Give me a hug when you see me walking on the street Because I need it more than you and you need it more than me