Family Tree

I don't know what damaged me, black sheep, I ain't how my family be So you can't even say I was the apple that fell down from the family tree My life just embarrassed me, I still get empathy, that's how my parents be I know damn well that I will never be the normal one out the family tree I ain't the guy put out to the universe fully Personally, it's facade I use to put up with bullies Been picked on since I was three and painfully looking back on all the shit Man, I thought they was homies Guess I just really wanted friends so I put up with those fellas I hope they doing good, but I also wish them hell But they what turned me into M-Hunt So I guess they at least did that Cause if it wasn't for the anger, probably never would've rapped But going back to family shit, I told you I was different My parents worked their ass off, my sister made the deans list (and) Here I am still, packing up groceries in a store They say all this is good for your lore But I'll never tell the stories cause I'm only pulling whores Who don't care about their future while I do but say I don't And the one girl that I really do f*ck with, I ain't never enter in her home (damn) I don't know what damaged me, black sheep, I ain't how my family be So you can't even say I was the apple that fell down from the family tree My life just embarrassed me I still get empathy, that's how my parents be I know damn well that I will never be the normal one out the family tree Glitz and glam for Instagram, that's only what I show You don't see the tears I cry as I pose for this post Cause am I gonna make it? Shit, I do not know I need to drop the weed, but the demons take control But if it ain't for the green, then a bottle is my go-to My uncle died of a heart attack, probably weakened by alc I miss him everyday, I still don't believe how God could even take him and now It's like I follow in his footsteps while he follows me around I swear I see his shadow as the liquor gets poured down My throat into my stomach till I pass out on the ground I can't even help but think about my nephews that are coming into town And I gotta act like I'm okay as I'm on the fourth drink I swear I'm not addicted but you tell me what y'all think Addiction's in my blood but I gotta weed it out Maybe just another little Guinness stout (wow) I don't know what damaged me, black sheep, I ain't how my family be So you can't even say I was the apple that fell down from the family tree My life just embarrassed me I still get empathy, that's how my parents be I know damn well that I will never be the normal one out the family tree Oh, it's getting even harder now They tell me that I can't back down Step on necks to take the crown And I'm so fucked Oh, it's getting even harder now I try to scream aloud But my voice just won't come out (and) I am so fucked