I Try, Pt. II (feat. DDK)

(It's just DFRNT) Misery loves company, but I'd rather be alone Phone on DND, ain't reading no MSGs I'll just watch the Knicks at home There physically, but mentally somewhere In the Ozone, I'm spacing out I don't know what the f*ck happened Truly just pray I make it out Smile shines through the pain I feel depersonalized like I ain't even there In fact, everything that I hear is muffled vision, blurry fear This could be my life Anxiety twice as bad as it was in the past But I have to survive, can't bar myself That ain't what I meant by raps (get it?) Can't let my nephew lose his godfather over dumb shit (what?) But the scars on my arm will show you I carved myself just like a pumpkin (damn) God, I'm frontin' Maybe I need to chill, try to smoke Paranoid still can't even light in peace No more throw the papers back in the drawer and write Lord, please hear my cries I ain't strong enough this time I try and I try and its never enough I'm sad though I say I'm fine, I don't know why Easier to lie, I guess Say the truth of why I fret But no one truly cares to listen But whatever, I digress Lord, please hear my cries I ain't strong enough this time I try and I try and its never enough I'm sad though I say I'm fine, I don't know why Easier to lie, I guess Say the truth of why I fret But no one truly cares to listen But whatever, I digress I ain't been okay, that ain't no lie I've been up four days, takin' my time Tryin' to make four plays Lotta motherfuckers just worry about foreplay Now I wanna f*ck the game, not the same Lock it in, if you can't, I'm bargin' through Time to waste, ain't for me Lotta things that I just gotta do Mama house, papa coupe Can't go back to robbin' fools Gotham city, lotta rules Lotta reeds, whoever's jewels Sign the key, tie a noose If you not, you would lose If you not, you would lose If you not, you would doze Peace, peace, that's three P DDK, bitch, I've cried too loud (And you know what?) That's some shit I never say To me and my bae Nowhere no woman, me and my face Seein' me cry, they would just leave They would just hate me Not one bitch would wanna date me If she know I shed tears on the daily Motherfuckers talk, but they don't wanna They don't wanna Lord, please hear my cries I ain't strong enough this time I try and I try and its never enough I'm sad though I say I'm fine, I don't know why Easier to lie, I guess Say the truth of why I fret But no one truly cares to listen But whatever, I digress Lord, please hear my cries I ain't strong enough this time I try and I try and its never enough I'm sad though I say I'm fine, I don't know why Easier to lie, I guess Say the truth of why I fret But no one truly cares to listen But whatever, I digress So what more can I say without sounding bitchy (what) Should be happy, on ThisIs50 (yeah) God's on my side, still feel defenseless (yup) Got all five, but still worried senseless Start to feel like I'm sufferin' endless Used to ball hard, swing for the fences Now hit the gym and still feel strengthless F*ck this shit, man, start rhyming contentious Till the flack comes back in your face And they all hate you as general consensus All cause you tried to be pretentious Now you could use a knife to cut tension Whatever room you stand in's tenseness Still ain't learn your lesson Not to mention, almost feel holy water Can't cleanse this mess of a man Grip the .45, that's death in my hand Could probably pull the trigger right now If it weren't for the fam Maybe it's cause I'm just not man enough Don't got the balls to commit Whatever it is, guess I'll get through it This shit that stinks in life So in this pew I sit, pray and say Lord, please hear my cries I ain't strong enough this time I try and I try and its never enough I'm sad though I say I'm fine, I don't know why Easier to lie, I guess Say the truth of why I fret But no one truly cares to listen But whatever, I digress Lord, please hear my cries I ain't strong enough this time I try and I try and its never enough I'm sad though I say I'm fine, I don't know why Easier to lie, I guess Say the truth of why I fret But no one truly cares to listen But whatever, I digress Your call has been forwarded to an automatic voice message system