Fade

Falling down I diminish, I really need a minute Yeah, I been here too long, try to clear my wrongs, in songs I amend it Look, breaking down I diminish, I really need a minute I got this pistol in my hand and I'm aiming at my head Like nigga just end it man F*ck this shit, bruh I'm ready to die At the crossroads wearing black, ready to fly Rise or fall I don't know but I know where I've been Alcatraz in my mind, man I'm feeling locked in Break out, I don't know if I can though Fade out overturned so I handle What I receive and believe with my pride interweave Will I see who I'll be, man there's no guarantee All these nights full of sweats and this recurring fever Aching and shaking, it's damn near a seizure Go to the doctor in hopes of reliever Just to be told they don't know what's wrong either Now I'm just pissed cause I ain't making steps More blood drawn and I'm getting more tests Kept this a secret, I try not to stress But I can't hold and it bleeds in my chest Take a breath, I need to stay alive Mend all the ties that I feel inside Set aside my pride how I breathe abides Man I can't even lie yo, I miss my bride Yeah we had to let it go cause its killing more Yeah I know Lord knows what's better for her Baby girl just leave me, baby just leave me I know dealing with my crazy ass ain't easy Step outside and I bask in the night That's the only time that I ever feel right Needing more life, more life, more light Cause I can't afford right, forth night, torn might Yo is this the world that He gives to me? Everyday ask the Lord to be healing me Every night yo I fight they ain't peelin' me Can't say what's the deal with me I think I need a minute So I ask myself, If I mask the health Will I be so wrong if I blast myself The plight to be indeed I pass the shell Knowing its my own fault that I bask in hell It can change right? Well I don't know Many trials in denial that I don't show Even though it's hard and I see regards Its like the world will applause when I fall to my flaws So I hate what I'm facin', hate what I'm pacin' Fate to negate, yo I hate what I'm placin' In to my heart where the climate's dark Raging sparks and that's when the violence starts I wanna see resolve, be evolved With these demons involve can I bleed them all? Will I lose myself in the fight of the pain? All these storms in my mind will I drown in the rain? Feel my life is changing everywhere I go Drink away the pain in, I just need to know Bound here forever Will I be astounded or drown in the weather? Will I make it right? Will I lose the fight? Tell me will I fall down? Will I ever see the light? If I keep the faith in mind I should just be fine I proceed to find all that intertwines How the stars align, stay in crystalline Moving supine how I breathe my rhyme I gotta get right in my sight pray to go on But plight that I fight's hard to hold on Hard to row on, tend to relive In the past so I ask can I be sieved Step outside and bask in the dark That's the only time that I ever see my heart Feel the part where I peel apart Where the zeal departs, is it really art? I don't know no more swear I need to find Pray every day for a peace of mind Feel in my veins how I reach decline Fade away all I say is I I think I need a minute Feel my life is changing Everywhere I go Drink away the pain in Lately I'm fading Feel my life fading