First Reformed

It's been a long time since I went to the doctor It's been a long time since I talked to God It's been a long time since I had a family Who cared about me enough to make me It's been a long time It's been a hard year living in an icebox It's been a hard year living alone It's been a hard year sleeping in the mud Pissing blood, waiting for the flood It's been a hard year Is there evil that can warrant violence? I prayed but all I heard his silence I could only see his widow crying I saw his brains and ashes scattered Was he right that nothing matters? Should you bring a child into a world that's dying? It's been a hard year It's been a bad day waiting for the service It's been a bad day gathering the nerve It's been a bad day. I courted hellfire Wrapped in barbed wire, I heard the church choir It's been a bad day