Fearless

It’s been a whole year Why haven’t the thoughts gone away yet But in my dreams you disappeared And overall I’m less anxious But any single reminder sets me back further than I can imagine It’s like back to the first month when I was all messed up and you already smiling Yeah you were already smiling When I’d wake up in the morning thinking why am I alive again And dreading a new day while I’m closing back my eyelids and Hoping I have the strength to the lose the feeling that’s bothering me I always knew the wave would hit and swallow up the hollow pit Where the fire erupts and burns inside of me It's messing up the chemicals in charge of my mood levels And now I’m sitting unstable letting my brain just be But now I’m good I’m Going about my days and all is fine As I should Feeling content like my thoughts are all mine 'Til I’m reminded of you My life starts to rewind There goes time, I'm losing sight I thought I had you out of my mind I feel fearless But I still fear you I still fear you I feel fearless But not around you Not around you No You know when you work hard to get over something difficult By changing mindsets, eating, and starting to fix the physical And you think you made lots of progress, wow you look incredible But in real life when the test comes by you fail and you’re back to miserable When I’d relapse again and feel it I couldn’t lose it it was haunting Wondering why my brain was failing Stuck in its ways I’m losing hope man Stuck in its ways I’m losing hope and I need to save myself from hopeless It’s like quicksand you stop you pulled in It’ll cut your breath, kill you, no option But now I’m good I’m going about my days and all is fine As I should Feeling content like my thoughts are all mine 'Til I’m reminded of you My life starts to rewind There goes time, I’m losing sight I thought I had you out of my mind I thought I had you out of my mind Out of my, mind Will I ever be fearless? I feel fearless But I still fear you I still fear you I feel fearless But not around you Not around you No Cuz when the sun brings my darkness And the sharp pain in the heart stings I remember it all This is my fall Cuz when the sun brings my darkness And the sharp pain in the heart stings I remember it all You are my fall I feel fearless But I still fear you I still fear you I feel fearless But not around you Not around you No