Searching For Them

A lifetime coming, and I still wanna keep running A lifestyle stunning, I see the city lights cloud and the fog keep tumbling My favourites did the same as me, they were like me, but they're not here anymore And I'm searching for them and myself in every person that walks through the door And it's one of those things when people leave, of course it hurts And it's a problem everyone grieves, it's the curse of the earth we're on But I'll keep scribbling my notes, trynna create a clear image in weird metaphors Of who I am and who they were, it's my task, my Portraiture My knuckles are scraped down the sides, I don't remember a time they weren't My cousins from different worlds will find me lighting cigs Trynna forget whilst it burns Trynna stay warm this Christmas, the lights look pretty in the city They always did, they always will It's something about winter that seems to fill me It did with you but the house feels colder this Christmas, 2021 I miss you, the rain, the strain, it's gonna be a heavy one Life still led me on, cut ties when I felt something good for once in my life So, up tonight, and I'm very aware my family don't like the poems I write But it's what I do, the fish swim, the birds take flight The rhythm of the moon, singing her sweet lullabies The distance of universe between where I am and where I've begun to rise And I can feel it, it's so close yet so hard to find A lifetime coming, and I still wanna keep running A lifestyle stunning I see the city lights cloud and the fog keep tumbling My favourites did the same as me They were like me, but they're not here anymore And I'm searching for them and myself in every person that walks through the door