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Like baby what's really the word cause this shit kinda hard I ain't tryna get hurt And I suffer of issues I don't put me first and I can't lose my life so I'm staying alert Of the people I'm around Pull me up and hold me down Need a break I'm away and outta town In my thoughts and I'm trying not to drown now I'm tweaking Guard up I ain't tryna look stupid last time I was hurt what the f*ck was I doing I've been trying so hard not to lose it I can't understand what we had was confusing Only way I can cope is with music I gave you my heart and you tried to abuse it All actions speak louder than words so don't tell me you love me if you cannot prove it Feel like going ghost I ain't really fucking with niggas might not be okay At the end of the day I feel like I won't be alive so I sit here and I pray So much shit I've been going through rain in my head and now all of this looking gray And I'm tired of talking don't got no more words not much that I could really say Now let me explain we gon start off with half of my brain Derealization I'm going insane start to tweak and I don't feel the same That's a reason I stay in my lane Only part that I really could tame Other part that's where I keep the pain It stay bottled up I don't know what I gain tryna stop it Cause the day I explode ain't too good and I'm tryna relax so I spark up a wood Niggas know I put on for my hood and them same niggas talk on the business I stood Keep it pushing don't know if I should but if it makes you happy you know that I would Feeling misunderstood yeah niggas don't get all my lyrics I wish that you could Like baby what's really the word cause this shit kinda hard I ain't tryna get hurt And I suffer of issues I don't put me first and I can't lose my life so I'm staying alert Of the people I'm around Pull me up and hold me down Need a break I'm away and outta town In my thoughts and I'm trying not to drown now I'm tweaking Like you couldn't love me for me and I'm not the type to be begging you please To be wise some shit you can't teach And coulda been us little date on the beach Have a convo just let it get deep Only time I express is when I'm on a beat Wanna know me then just take a seat All you gotta do is just listen and peep Damn