LONELY (feat. TOTTAYY)

Hmm, hmm I just wanna take a sec to pause and be real Take away the mic, the melody, and the steel That's covering my heart cause I don't know what's real But I really miss those days where I could fucking feel That feeling Deep in my chest Somewhere Can't find it You took it I guess With all your likes, your views But please hold the applause Intoxicated by those hooks, the looks, and the flaws It's drugging me It's like every time I try to be the man that I want I keep stepping further backwards to the times that haunt Can't seem to get it fucking right, I keep choosing the wrong font It's killing me Damn Didn't wanna go that far, but it's what I truly feel I guess this is a song where I finally be real M3 And the pain comes when I think of you Bad news when it comes to you So I'd rather be lonely I'd rather be lonely Memories and a broken heart But I don't know if I went too far But it's killing me slowly It's killing me slowly I keep coming to the days where I think that it's over Still searching for the light am I getting any closer Cause I'm fighting for my life just to see a bit further But it still feels like I'm nowhere So f*ck it not sober So maybe I can grow into who I wanna be But until then I keep looking for relief And just another breath, a holy release Not me All these cloudy breaths are built from all my fears But from this day on through blood, sweat, and tears I'm be the man my mom says I can be M3 And the pain comes when I think of you Bad news when it comes to you So I'd rather be lonely I'd rather be lonely Memories and a broken heart But I don't know if I went too far But it's killing me slowly It's killing me slowly Yo I'm living life lessons every breath and every second Every step and every friendship, every death and every mention Starts to lessen all the stresses that can sometimes be relentless Makes you second guess directions and address your own intentions I'm growing as a person trying to find a better version Trying to mend what's in my head and always aim to further learning Got the fire in me burning, I'm inspired and deserving Stacking gold till I'm old and retire off my earnings I never misalign, spitting rhymes, it's my time, the watch is mine I gotta do it for my wife's sacrifice, I gots to shine Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind At the end of the day, the only battle's in your mind Don't be reckless with other people's heart chords Also don't put up with those who are reckless with yours Don't make enemies or pretend to be something you're not Don't pass up opportunities, you may not get another shot Remember compliments you receive, forget the insults Succeed and achieve, but believe in better results I'm 36, I learn something new every day Fishing for my flowers like two bouquets Yeah, king is taking rook, pawn is taking queen I'm strong on the back laps I'm fast as lightning McQueen I wanna live forever but I know that can't be right It's TOTTAYY back again my friends, good evening and good night The pain comes when I think of you Bad news when it comes to you So I'd rather be lonely I'd rather be lonely Memories and a broken heart But I don't know if I went too far But it's killing me slowly It's killing me slowly Hmm, hmm, Not sober Thanks for listening