Dead Roses

I'm knee deep in my zone this ain't just another song Behind the castle walls their's just too much going on Lately I've been feeling off I guess I'm better off Living life like there ain't no tomorrow I know you got a long list of shit I should've done instead of walking off I know you think the way I'm living life lately is kind of wrong I know I met some girls that did me right but the timing was wrong I know I got issues with my (damn I hate that song) Feel like I'm drifting in and out reality My state is subconsciously Dejected off the fuckeries and made believes Cause the outside looking in ain't always as it seems My mind state is somewhere outta space staring at the world Down in the mouth out of my luck, out of sight out of mind, Out of character starstruck is not like one of a kind Why am I trying to give when no one gives me a try What am I trying to see when there ain't nothing in sight They say you reap what you sow But this is unforeseen And people fears the unknown Pessimism got me on spleen This crazy life of mine can make a grown man cry I know if I leave I still got niggaz steady plotting I die(yuh) My phone full of texts I ain't been replying lately Mood swings frequent I'm fed up with rage lately I ain't even budging to no one's needs And still I entertain it as if that shit is what I need The one's like me are the one's that don't like me the most But I can't hold a grudge longer than I can hold my breath To all intense and purposes I'm not the like to pigeonhole Quite frankly I've seen people act like they know how to act What these bitches want from a nigga I guess I loved you more when you were still with him Too much on my plate just means more for dinner Lord forgive me I'm a fuckin sinner