Rack City Love Letter

I know I said I'd change but I never do That was never a lie I just thought I could I mean you know that I just can't and I wish I could And even though I know I won't I really wish I would I know that I'm too closed off I don't easily let people in Emotionally detached can't let nobody know me like you did Told me you love me to death I self destruct as I watch you leave Now how could question what became of me Sometimes I only lie 'coz the truth can be too much We get too scared to give 'coz we fear it ain't enough I ain't scared to fall in love I just think I've seen too much I could bag the baddest girl and still feel she ain't enough I love hard I just suck at expressing it And my actions too confusing I'm so hard to read Backhanded compliments, temptations red I bleed I don't think I'm toxic or good I'm somewhere in between I wonder what you infer about all the things you heard about me When you hear the stories please don't be too quick to judge me Decisions I made been outta line lately Lost a lotta love to my foolish pride lately Now every bit of link up is just bittersweet Or maybe that's the reason why I've been discreet My vibe make you love me My attitude push you away Connections break 'coz it ain't nothing more to say A victim of my selfish ways I still gat habits I can't really seem to shake away So this my Rack City Love Letter I've reached the point where a matter don't really matter Matter fact I swear I comprehend it when you say that I changed But I get bored with anything that stays exactly the same I know they say I'm standoffish My personality is borderline And my attitude is nothing i can glorify I hope you see what's up before it falls onto me Promise if I slip you gon hold on to me These are things that we normally couldn't speak about Kept to ourselves soo much It got so big to walk around And now you know that I'm never gon' change And so I promise not to ever make a promise again I'm sorry