Living Hell (feat. Natallie Kh)

I go out every night Storie's in my instagram The city lights, the club we are at The fellas by my side Wake up in a strangers bed Then I'm laughing with my friends Seems like everything is okay But it was all pretend Every time they're by my side I feel all gon' be alright Wish that feelin' could be with me every single night There's a secret I've never told Never said to someone else 'Cause I kept it to myself Hear voices inside my head When I close the door The thoughts begin to darken I don't know how to stop 'em It is my bones It is in my head Like an anxiety thread Wish I could run from myself But I'm stuck in my head 'Cause when I close the door The inner dark unleashes And the depression runs All the way through my blood It's a wicked game My mind against myself It's like I'm trapped in a web It's like a living hell I'm always in a hurry Pretending not to worry I know I'm gonna be okay As long as they support me When I'm with them it's like a glory It's like another story Then the book is closed when I'm alone It's blurry Don't tell me not to worry When I close the door The thoughts begin to darken I don't know how to stop 'em It is in my bones It is in my head Like an anxiety thread Wish I could run from myself But I'm stuck in my head 'Cause when I close the door The inner dark unleashes And the depression runs All the way through my blood It's a wicked game My mind against myself It's like I'm trapped in a web It's like a living hell Do you know if there's a way To get this outta my head? Do you know if it's my mistake For not showin' my pain? Do you know if there is a way To be lonely and feel okay? Do you know if there's a way To get out this living Hell Hell Hell Hell When I close the door The thoughts begin to darken I don't know how to stop 'em It is in my bones It is in my head Like an anxiety thread Wish I could run from myself But I'm stuck in my head 'Cause when I close the door The inner dark unleashes And the depression runs All the way through my blood It's a wicked game My mind against myself It's like I'm trapped in a web It's like a living hell