Bare My Soul

On the edge of precipice Doesn’t feel very good to be running in circles I lost my essence by jumping through hurtles And turned to a pessimist left with his journals The trigger was pressed By lingering stress Of can I make money and not be commercial I handled my ego And turned to the people Who told me that all of that shit is internal I get it, I get it, I get it, I get it How’d I turn so damn bitter Momma ain’t raise no quitter Half man half transmitter Lots going wrong but I still carry on There are things that I must consider Like did I progress? Or should I show less? Convinced that I must know best I’m juggling jobs To build a career While fighting with things that I fear The urge to be right Is dimming the light Of anything good That’s soon to appear I’m clearing the slate now No moving with hate now Patiently playing, avoiding a breakdown While throwing my weight ‘round Nobody fucking with me when I’m activated Acclimated to the demolition Perhaps I’m jaded and bit too distant The facts were stated, but I must’ve missed it Cause I never listen But I’ll heed a warning If it grows consistent And I see it forming Then it gets explicit Mentally I’m way past my limit But damn who isn’t? I get it, I get it, I get it, I get it I’ve been living on go I’ve been scared to say no But I never let it show Will I do what’s best for me And just bare my soul? When the currents so stong that it broke the jetski and the pen game harder than Dostoevsky and the crime is too cold make me wipe my nose Then I’ma pull as a punisher and do it myself ‘cause i dont want to be another book on the shelf cage match every time I look at myself B line, tryna send a hook on the wealth streamline vessel wanna send me to hell Like a goddam gondola if you loved me once it might come again im not a fan of the mask and the make-believe im not a participant of the Comicon im in the city of the palms in the parking lot nobody wanna offer a hand or palm I’m a motel tryna find bliss or god whatever comes first either way I’d feel shock