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Let's take it back to where it all started The first draft of the first song; past where it all happened I was so confused at the time, profusely declined, The heart broke; the food was poison at times, I loitered a lot So many things I couldn't handle because I'm insecure Adapted to their lifestyle, so I could feel secure About myself, shit I was lost and I was off the whole time Tryna put out the slow fires that's lackin' the profounds No bars and wordplay, we finna go straight What it feel like, back in that spot, shit it was cold, ay I see a lot of lights, that neon, jeepin' round the streets My soul weep; the thoughts: bleak; damn, really wanna smokey Livin' on the lowkey, literally I'm choking I was lookin' forward to myself become an oldie Gotta get out by all means, them thoughts became the old me I wrote it down, the first verse, and i just kept on going ‘til I-- I'm gonna reach the top and it don't really matter what they say When i come up, and they get at me I just bang, bang, bang when I come up, and they get at me I just, I just, oh, I just-- And I will never stop ‘cause it don't really matter what they say and I get up, when I fall down and I just bang, bang, bang They wanna push me to the side but i'll just bang, bang, bang I can still remember, first time that I did a record I was so relentless, I tried to repeat the effort I do remember everything, from zero distance, to this place I do remember, used to be the goof– belittled, everyday I remember rap saved me, these verses serve as my therapy What I couldn't tell anyone, these lyrics we're screaming help me Tried spilling it one time, and all I'm hearing: it's all fine They keep telling me everytime, that depression is in the mind They pushed me to the side; an outcast dead inside These four walls feel small– die a little more every night Pain is a good feeling, pay attention to these lyrics Be advised it's no gimmick, this is not for y'all cynics, This is anything but hate, this is anything but fake This is anything but bullshit, this is anything but great This is anything but chasing papers and trophies and fame This is everything i pour ever since the fire went ablaze And I can feel your warmth embracing me These wounds, they feel like nothing, ‘cause you on the third degree I give you all I got, oh my cherie I give you all I got, oh my cherie And i can feel your warmth embracing me These wounds, they feel like nothing, ‘cause you on the third degree I think I'm burnin' up I think I'm burnin', my cherie (‘Cause loving you is crazy, ah, loving you is crazy, ah) I'm gonna reach the top and it don't really matter what they say When i come up, and they get at me I just bang, bang, bang when I come up, and they get at me I just, I just, oh, I just-- (‘Cause loving you is crazy, ah, loving you is crazy, ah) And I will never stop ‘cause it don't really matter what they say and I get up, when I fall down and I just bang, bang, bang They wanna push me to the side but i'll just bang, bang, bang