Different Song

This is for my firstborn, man I hope you hear this Promise you my all ,never to put you through, what I had to deal with Promise to never leave you so I can go out drinking And have your mom lie to you, say "I'll be back in a minute" Never put you through predicament, that's past your limits And if it's my fault, be a man will never hesitate to admit it Promise to be faithful to your mother, but even with these rainbows everywhere It's hard to see your true colors. Colorblind the most beautiful things that are in life. We worried about the luxuries we don't have. Instead of the ones in plain sight Should I die today? Seems like the night. Should I pray or should I deny Kindness taken for weakness, why is this world so harsh Wanna be an asshole, wasn't raised with that kind of heart Promise my godfather, never let this world tear me apart But so many pieces of me spread throughout the dark Sometimes I see that silver lining and it starts to dim Any hopes and dreams seems like a fairy tale that never ends So if I chase after mine, am I playing pretend? I guess me, my reality will never make amends God damn. Now it seems like you're slave to the pain No matter how hard I try, man I've never seem to gain But when that beat comes up, man it's a different song Gotta stay strong, man I gotta stay strong as I grow Quicker to judge what you don't see. Magician my emotions, have your eyes deceived The only trap house I know is the one in my dreams Got that dope shit, on dope shit but I'm the fiend Contemplated suicide, yeah i had those thoughts Rope tied and everything and I almost jumped Back in my mind, I hear my angel yelling Saying what the f*ck you doing boy? Do you know what hell is I told I'm living it, god damn it can't you see I can't sleep, I only eat, I can't even fucking breathe I just wanna maintain, I just want inner peace Just leave me alone, be gone man, just let me be Simply the fact, I've been away from rap Cause I lost my path, for a bitch that didn't love me back So that's that, tell them the hell spawned is back With this halo attached, with that fire, you flamed At me boy, I'll flame you right back So don't expect that nice guy, when I come by For that high five, cause I feel low And that's a part of me you'll never know And that's the way I have to grow With my heart a little cold, searching for my pot of gold But I'll never sell my soul And I'm tired of these false accusations Quick to point the finger at me, without knowing the full situation So go ahead, money on my head, that's what I'm used to Suffocate me for how I carry myself, like a noose do Tired of the bullshit, cause I speak the real Never have to question who I am, or what's the deal If you don't like it, I can give a f*ck how you feel Stay me steady, with the shot I kill But it seems like you're slave to the pain No matter how I try, man, I never see the gain But when that beat comes on, man, it's a different song Gotta stay strong, man, I gotta stay strong, as I grow