RUNAWAY

Sometimes I I lie awake Close my eyes Close my eyes and pray That in time I will escape From my mind I can't run away There's thoughts in my head that I can't get away from Aye, can't get away from What if when I make it they hate what I've become Yuh, hate what I become Will they wanna kill me whenever I'm famous Oh, when I'm famous What if I accomplish everything I can dream of Yuh, Ugh, then what Maybe I'm thinkin too much Maybe not thinkin enough, aye Maybe I'm carin too much, not carin enough One day I might fall out of love What will I do when I'm losin the buzz Abusing the drugs When they say that I aint who I was What if I find what happiness is And I am no longer numb They say that it gets easier with time For me it gets easier to pretend that I'm fine What if they catch me by suprise Without my mask, look in my eyes Will I survive with cameras in my face Or will I give up on my dreams Often times I wonder if I have what it takes To take the place of one of the greats Sometimes I I lie awake Close my eyes Close my eyes and pray That in time I will escape From my mind I can't run away Do you know how it feels to be lonely Yuh, I'm lonely Do you know how it feels to be the only The only one When you can't breathe and your dyin slowly Dyin slowly Try to do right but you don't feel holy So unholy Why do they always pretend That they are my friend I know they won't be here for me in the end I cannot express The things that I'm feelin inside my head Everything's a battle, I'm stuck on the fence Tryna keep the balance is becoming more of a challenge I dont need praise for my valiance I just want this to stop happenin Sometimes I I lie awake Close my eyes Close my eyes and pray That in time I will escape From my mind I can't run away I ruminate until I hate myself Intrusive thoughts make me overwhelmed People say that I should seek help So I conversate with my transcendent self He says I'm proving myself imprudent But I brush it off, gotta keep on moving Cuz I'm obsessed with self improvement I can only find peace within evolution But what happens if I fall What's with all of these awful thoughts I search and search but I find no cause My train of thought must be lost Compulsive convulsions when on the meds Sometimes I run away from my stress I hate when doubt fills my head like Did I work for these skills or was I blessed Sometimes I I lie awake Close my eyes Close my eyes and pray That in time I will escape From my mind I can't run away Sometimes I Close my eyes Will I escape I can't run away