Letter 2 Myself

(A letter to myself) (Yuh, a letter to myself) The things that make me smile just make me cry Memory of dead, keep me alive Met you, strange time in my life Now, I just sit, watch the days go by Keep to myself 'bout to seek you out I keep getting lost in what I've found I sleep every night in a different house I be outside, I can't talk now Back to the start Think I played my best cards Back to the start I got an ace and an broken heart Just play your part (Your part!) Always act like I'm going far (-ing far!) I'll play my part (My part!) Just a prop that you'll play for a laugh The things that make me smile just make me cry Memory of dead, keep me alive Met you, strange time in my life Now, I just sit, watch the days go by Keep to myself 'bout to seek you out I keep getting lost in what I've found I sleep every night in a different house I be outside, I can't talk now It's getting late, I need to make it back before my curfew And if it's bad or if it's great, I still will not deserve you And I'll never know you good enough to ever learn you I know I got an edge but, no, I didn't wanna hurt you Time machine to 2019 Shot myself like I made a scene On his knees, as he bleeds Said "How could you do this to me?" Said "I'm not mean, you'll come to see" "Why you should be grateful, please" A broken heart is replaced but it did not belong to thee