Internal Pain

Endless hole in my chest It'd never be filled Cause the last person I showed my wound to Smiled then went for the kill Now I'm finished All by myself Damn how can I be strong I smile and people think I'm calm But I swear I'm bleeding in my lungs All my friends start to drift away I have a boat trynna save the day I'm looking out and they drown They don't want no help How can they be okay Tell me why they leavin' me now All by myself Ouw Everything goin' down I just wanna survive this is wild Thoughts in my head are the worst Gotta watch what I say in this verse Cause this ain't nothin to rehearse No this ain't nothin you can reverse But I just gotta express on how I feel Hate people leave me all at the hill Trynna figure out what should I give Or what about me I should kill I'm constantly looking for a skill Need someone to just keep it real I have ya back all the time Why can't people seem to have mine They keep me all in the blind But I just wanna help 'em shine Crazy yeah crazy times They want what they can't give I guess that's why my friends die Because it's way easier than to live Who tf really knows I just really wanna feel This happiness in the earth But my heart stays on chill Too much cold is it real Too much cold got me ill