Soul Search

Wonderin which way to go Look to my chest I see that it's cold Balancing high and the lows I look at my life and I see that it's froze Stories untold I paint a good picture Walkin I see me a rose All down the road I been searchin lookin for love but it's cold I give my all keepin it new but somehow receivin the old Must be too emotional Don't know but these are the things I been told Mentally I'm fucked up I give my all I prayin my woman don't fold But she wanna leave how the f*ck she gone just leave me all alone? Already we married not no divorce and no we not gettin annulled Show you a man This the real deal look at the things I done showed The way that I hold I been a king come take a seat at my throne I built this all for you ain't no need for us comparin our own Got me a home I'm insecure when I'm livin alone Don't know what to think I hate gettin close Because people keep doin me wrong Same shit different day I swear I just wanna be gone Cause maybe she'll feel Maybe the shit that I say she know that it's grown Dealin with real life won't be easy but it's worth all the feels Keepin it real I never lied promise no need to be chill Millions of pills Overdose got me thinkin the real Maybe my absence and bein a ghost when I used to be here Maybe it's best and she'll be fine since she won't even care I hate bein ignored it's like drivin and all the roads are just clear Never good enough but you keep cryin and wish that they hear It's all good though I know that I been the one just keepin it real And friends too Went from the guy to the damn fool Everybody close to me break the damn rules Pick and choose when hang like it's damn cool Put me down in a closet like some damn tools Scrub ya hair rinse me off like some shampoo Done walkin round lookin in this damn zoo Every night I pray that I never lose In my dreams come to life and I never snooze Long as I got a way to kick out these blues Told myself I'll heal just a small bruise Even if people think it's how they move That'll trick me thinkin that it's all cool Made a promise to myself I'll never lose Forever I'm grateful I'll never lose Forever I'm grateful always keep my cool