Surrounded by Angels

I hate waking up to hearin bout the people loss I hate lookin online just for me to get back off This shit got me feelin down It ain't no feelings lost It's just the flesh and hearin a voice I'll never hear them talk I lost my grandma back in the day it's got me feelin off I held my GG hand before she left she couldn't talk I seen my grandfather in a year falling off But I was torn about Lastsrza when I got the call They gunned him down The crazy thing about a good heart I'm at war with myself I've been fallin apart Worried bout this music shit Trynna perfect my art I lost so many loved ones I gotten broken heart Then I heard about Darian I pray it wasn't true I wish I wasn't right I'll remember you Shit just be gotten so scary When people close to you Fall off then fade away This pain ain't nothin new I'm surrounded by angels that's the least I could say So many people I done lost from way back in the day I remember my uncle he was so cool in his ways I close my eyes and I pray I wish I'm over with this phase Seem like the higher I go The more of people that's watchin But it don't matter when my loves can't be here to spot me I talked with Asia on the curb for hella hours she was mad cool She was from up north and she had plans to go to grad school I remember so much When I had asked you Why we cool You said Matt you not a bad dude I told Drica everytime that she so strange And she told me off like Matt you ain't got no game I sit and smile before a tear fall off my face Cause it's hell here I know heaven I'll feel another day So many loved ones gone but I'm gone be okay