Paralysis

Got my eyes staring at the ceiling Heavy pound, got me pulling down Wanna rise up no feeling Mental screams for a way out but they Won't even hear you squealing Can't talk with the mouth sewed But they don't know why Me myself and I Wanna be free Hella foggy when you see everybody's self esteem Wishing I could be you ain't give a damn about me Never had it as a child be the same shit I see The same shit I bleed Numb stuck kept the gun tucked All the shots ain't worth shooting Never in it to be loading rounds Tryna move around feeling looted Only gripping at it's best Holding tight never loosen up Got you paused up like a gay bar All abilities put the deuces up Never wanted to be chosen Came by and it chose me Then it froze me like I'm posing Been going through the motion Had to carry self transparency Nigga FTG be the slogan Had the old self be the old me But the feeling ever so ghosted So much lack that I really stack Hard to move on Had it in me then I took a shot Hard to move on Bringing all the grind plus deprivation Never time for the meditation Back to back for the others waiting Ever feel like your attitude Making more moves then you think Waking up in the same pain Mary j in the same name Every word that you gonna hear Got to block them out what a damn shame Most of them do the talking But they really going through the same thing Its all easy when its said Never done like you planned it All verbally facade Kept a nigga looking stranded Only shaped by the flaws The good about me is abandoned Ain't no shine when accommodating They are only gonna take advantage Wanna dip out please take me lord Freedom what I've been feening for Visions coming feet beneath the floor I've been narrow minded like a corridor Mental state is incarcerated Same shots where the targets aiming Red dot for the third view wanna burn you Please penetrate it Never wanna pass my limitations Only feel is debilitation Ring around a fucking rosy I'll be given one when obliterated Lead me to another route Always wanna reel a nigga back in Thought I really wanted out But a nigga really still trapped in So much lack that I really stack Hard to move on Had it in me then I took a shot Hard to move on Bringing all the grind plus deprivation Never time for the meditation Back to back for the others waiting