Submerged

I'm in a war With my own skin Just like this feeling I'm drowning in I've lost track of the years I wasted on you Stuck in the wrong life Nothing I could do Your voice in my head echoing my doubts Just when I thought I had it all figured out I tried to push it away I tried to crush it back down Climbed up all over again Just to hit the ground I tried to keep it all locked away inside Starting over again To get it right this time I'm lost again In my own past The pieces that I thought Would always last When I look back I always see your face I wish I could Get out of this place The emptiness is all around I try to scream but I can't make a sound The further I go the harder it gets The fear of the future trumps the fear of regret Push the needle in to become my true self Wishing it would turn me into someone else