imposter syndrome

Just another day sayin' hello, and my mind ain't my own Haven't felt the same since the get-go, ain't been right in my home Just another day sayin' hello, and my mind ain't my own Haven't felt the same since the get-go, ain't been right in my home When you finally reach the place you're goin' It don't really feel like it I don't see the face I know, it's real or it appears like I'm bullshittin', real-life Tryna sit still, like, I can't feel the skin I'm in It's feelin' like I'm still high Picture this, perfect day Tryna tell myself it's fate, feel like every thing I gain Gon' hurt me in some typa way Wonder why I pray, everything I need provided, great How could I complain, How could He mistake the trust I gave I guess it's why I bite the bullet, I always invite the blade and they never see me doubt myself or realize that I be afraid Look at my face, really I can't begin A way to explain what I'm sayin' Thinkin' bout changing the name, I feel the weight in my veins I got a key to the chains, ugh I need a friend, I took a shot to the head and I'm feelin' a mess Lately I'm feelin' regret, all of these stupid ass thoughts entertained in my head Kickin' 'em under the bed, remember when I was depressed Wonder if that was some real shit, they feel it, or did it go over their heads I keep on doubtin' myself I put my pain on the set, tell 'em I'll sleep when I'm dead, So what I keep the weight on my chest, I keep berating myself No trust Think I'm in love with the stress, I'll let my demons confess It keep me pushin' the ceiling and writing the feelings up out of my head Really be needing myself Just another day sayin' hello, and my mind ain't my own Haven't felt the same since the get-go, ain't been right in my home Just another day sayin' hello, and my mind ain't my own Haven't felt the same since the get-go, ain't been right in my home Now if I move too fast and hit this gas I might be on to something You ain't been around enough, can't even tell me nothin' I done walked miles, I been following something I done worked out, I done built this muscle Smoke through pounds, how I deal with struggle Stayed in my house when the world in trouble Now it's all long gone, It's a damn shame Cause I been around and I feel the same Worked long nights, but I can't say I earned half of anything that I became Bigger picture, I need a frame Marble floor but I see the stains I freed the pain, still bleed the same Always needed people, guess I need the fame And I swear to you, you don't know shit if you know me Man I'm like ten two, what I been through How I keep my problems right below me Tell me now, how well do you know me? Cause everyone a little phony Worry like all the time, that I'm never right Where I need to be in the moment Just another day sayin' hello, and my mind ain't my own Haven't felt the same since the get-go, ain't been right in my home Just another day sayin' hello, and my mind ain't my own Haven't felt the same since the get-go, ain't been right in my home Just another day sayin' hello, and my mind ain't my own Haven't felt the same since the get-go, ain't been right in my home