Lord Knows

Lord knows, lord knows my nigga, lord knows Shit changed my nigga, lord knows Ayy, yuh, ayy, yuh Look, I grew up silent, stayed to myself The more I stayed out of trouble the more I lost myself They never offered help, rather push me off the shelf Declining in health, my mama losing herself I couldn't give a damn bout what shady saying 'bout me Dog, swear to God they throwing shade but steady wearing camouflage I ain't charged up nigga, but you could catch a charge I got more ammo in case you wanna sabotage My papa was a soldier only wore a lot of camouflage You think I'm playing, well, you probably just see a mirage Cause I ain't on no bullshit, I'ma snap at y'all People that talk behind your back, man, that's immature And Lord knows I ain't got no time for that I was always on my grown shit so I better get some shine for that We used to crack on you so we better get a line for that My response is you wasting my time so give me time for that But who am I to judge these lame ass niggas Got more shit to worry bout, like getting figures You lose your soul to it if you never had the figures If you ask me though, that's only the square ass niggas Yeah, so I put my soul in this rap shit Take a peek into my life a life too tragic You take a shot at me, my response is automatic Don't talk shit if you never ever had it Or better yet if you always seem to have it Never used to stunt but now stunting is a habit Turn a normal fan into a fanatic Skeletons in my closet and birds in the attic But I'ma rattle your cage if you try to pick my brain I told myself this year that I ain't playing no games Last year was just the start, I'ma cop me a new chain Next step is a nice whip, new slave to the big change Put myself up on a level that they couldn't match I guess I had to face the facts, there's always a catch But scratch that my feelings are starting to detach Had no way of knowing if these people have my back I could never handle that, maybe I'm just over matched No, scratch that, I think I'm just a catch They fishing around but they gotta face the facts I'm on my own shit so put away the contracts Mama's still going through it, she still missing pops Wish that could change but right now I'm all she's got It's been that way ever since I lost my pops And ever since I been rhyming tryna reach my pops Cause Lord knows I never had a chance to say my thoughts I stay up every night, mind buzzing with these thoughts I know I'm lost but what am I gon' stumble 'cross? Used to get double crossed but now I'm such a boss Lord knows my nigga, lord knows Shit changed my nigga, lord knows Shit changed my nigga, lord knows Ayy, yuh, ayy, yuh