Up2Me!

I guess, anything I want is up to me Up to me, yeah I've been tryna make the right choice Not a fan of all this noise, I just need the ones that I love I just need to find me the way I've been tryna make the right choice it ain't up to God it's up to me Wanna make things right it's up to me or I suffer in my grief I've been tryna make the right choice it ain't up to God it's up to me Wanna make things right it's up to me or I suffer in my grief I don't know if this love is everything you want It's hard to know if I'm enough Everything I do there's just a little more that I want Let me hold on to this feeling You got my heart through the ceiling Guess my love scars I aren't healing I guess I'm gonna be this way for good I'm gone for good, I told you that I would But I ain't coming back, No time to look back at my past, Cause I'm in my bag With life in the fast lane I don't wanna go that way I don't feel ok, what's on the way Inside my head is an earthquake I've been tryna make the right choice It ain't up to God it's up to me Wanna make things right it's up to me Or I suffer in my grief I've been tryna make the right choice It ain't up to God it's up to me Wanna make things right it's up to me Or I suffer in my grief Even though I know I won't be the same Roll up get high to find the way To hide the pain, might go insane Maybe I said chill the f*ck out no way Let me understand the way you feel, Cause you won't tell me anything But I know it's true that you don't love me anyway, So f*ck it all you can't love me You can't love the way I do You can't do the things I do You did the worst my entire heart is broke in two All the things you put me through And now I'm through My heart is black and blue from you Yeah, I knew that you would end up fucking me up, My heart's in two I've been tryna make the right choice It ain't up to God it's up to me Wanna make things right it's up to me Or I suffer in my grief I've been tryna make the right choice It ain't up to God it's up to me Wanna make things right it's up to me