Down So Long (feat. Daurah Bernadette)

It's like a everyday I wake up I feel it in my chest bruh Feel like my time is coming to an end But that's alright cause My grandma told me that I'm gonna Be alright No matter what happens Yeah imma Be alright Still feel some way inside Since my brotha Josh died Don't know what way to feel Sometimes my body wanna cry My momma told me damen Don't hold your motions inside Swear I been down down bad And so so sad God said keep on pushing And you know I jus laugh Been doing this a minute Where u been in the past Trials and trials Almost eighteen years six thousand something days But I done shed more tears Man it was hard in the V Hard in RP It's hard being black Man it's hard being me They say you only seventeen Damen things gon worse I reply with a smile Thank god that imma alive I'm gon live for a while Since things don't get no easier I'll try for a while And then accept that that's my path And I won't die with a frown Avoiding all these drugs Cause I'd be damned if I drowned See times get hard I done fell to the ground Feel like I wouldn't get back up But look at me now I'm alright And things is just fine Sometimes feel like I'm going so crazy Up in my mind I realized it's the world Ain't got nothing to do wit me Just hoping they get off of my neck So I can breathe They say the real die young And the good go quick You know this theory been proven Because I feel so sick They killing all my brothas Who been real like this A conscious mind should never Have to feel like this But everybody listens So they kill fore u live Enough time To go and spit this message to the kids Cause we dangerous As a people they can't hang wit us When we all one and awoken You know that we just some slaves to them Swear I be going so crazy I'd be lying if I said That this world didn't faze me Sometimes feel like a dream But other times Like a nightmare Can't sleep at night Cause I be dreaming bout my life fears Falling in a hole so dark There ain't no light here I'm scared of the inevitable But how can you not be Every time I close my eyes Feel like it just got me Every bodies running from something Cause times get rocky But I know that imma be alright Cause gods got me Life ain't never changed Cause a brotha in them chains And I'm tryna break free Enough of feeling all this pain But I know that that's a dream that's unrealistic So I keep rapping on the beat until they feel it And as the years go by We'll keep on pushing Like f it what's the use anyway We give up tomorrow Then well be broke another day I keep my head up And when it's time Won't hesitate I hope they don't forget when I die Don't fade away In a hundred years I'll cease to exist But who really cares I'm just the sea to the fish A beast to the people And a nigga to the rest U ain't messing with me now Don't hit my phone When I get blessed Down so long I don't know what else to be And they don't wanna see me winning They don't wanna let me be But that's alright Cause imma Imma keep doing my thing Keep on spitting for the people Know we hope for better days Wish they could stand in my shoes For a day and just be me And maybe you would understand Why it's so hard to breathe Cause I been down long That I don't know what else to be