Wonderland

Met this girl so recently, she had me drowning decently I can't be clowned but she can see I'd slice the world so evenly In half, she's reaching me, her grasp is deep inside my ass I seem to have a blast, when we meet up I laugh so hard Like my bars though I'm so scarred, the shards of my heart are so far Inside of me, anxiety's blinding me, this side of me Is prying me of what I'd die to see, I try to keep the sight I seek so high at peak No denying me, can't silence me, this time I'll speak my mind so honestly I'm grateful to meet someone graceful It's time to leap faithfully, hoping it won't be painful I'm smoking to cope with the stress Cause I don't wanna choke, need to be at my best I'm tied like a rope with my sleeves on my chest Damn, man I'm feeling a bit insane Been dreaming of this day, I'm screaming in disdain I'm leaving the bitch lane, I'm not sticking around anymore I'm taking the risk, don't care if I'm tricked I'm gon bear with the itch, I'm so scared of the ditch But this shit's fucking annoying, I tried so hard And this fucker is toying with me, playing me So convincing, the first day it seemed to be so nice I didn't have to walk on thin ice Now it looks like I'm getting stabbed in the heart She might as well rip it apart, the way she had me feeling It's getting so hard, I hate this feeling I paint the ceiling blue, cause I'm so fucked up I may be revealing you, thought I was locked up But the devil be leading you, I might as well tough up How the f*ck you gon' switch up on me overnight I'm stitched up only on the inside, but in hindsight I find light in being too kind, right? She didn't deserve my bright side I might fight the devil, I strike twice A freckle of fright like a rebel a blind dyke on Red Bull Can't believe it must be a dream I'm rarely on my knees, except for the G.O.D I don't plead for nobody But she had me weak and, I was barely even peaking I get nervous, I start leaking sweat I'm seeking death, it sucks to be a mess So easily depressed by the signs I say I'm fine But one text and then I fucking decline