Falling

Ever since I left her I've been trying to master All of my feelings Dealing with thoughts that shouldn't matter Emotional pain you couldn't measure And if I only could, find someone worth staying I wouldn't be leaving My crushes wouldn't be so fleeting and painful I'm done pleasing Women too fatal, so many unfaithful Alcohol is leeching from my bleeding heart Especially in December The winter is so cold and it drags on 'Cause I feel so alone And it feels like I am falling Back to my old ways of thinking People can't see that I'm stalling And I'm sinking, drowning in tears And I'm calling all these different names For some loving But I'm faced with my trusting issues I can't erase, guess I'm lost in this world And I can't find a place Trying to improve myself I'm so cold 'cause I left without my other half Now I'm a lonely soul Stuck between heaven and hell But I will never fold I'd rather be alone than to sell my love to the first person Glancing into my soul I can't lose control But I'm, turning older and I ponder If I'll ever be touched by the arrows of love Or is it all over Maybe it's fate, a peril imposed from above I miss leaning on her shoulder When I felt weak, I could always hold her And it feels like I am falling Back to my old ways of thinking People can't see that I'm stalling And I'm sinking, drowning in tears And I'm calling all these different names For some loving But I'm faced with my trusting issues I can't erase, guess I'm lost in this world And I can't find a place I don't want to come down I just want to OD You and me I just want to OD And it feels like I am falling Back to my old ways of thinking People can't see that I'm stalling And I'm sinking, drowning in tears And I'm calling all these different names For some loving But I'm faced with my trusting issues I can't erase, guess I'm lost in this world And I can't find a place