Losing Hope

Can I find the words to express what I really feel I do my best so listen and go grab the reel Watch this motion picture in the form of a scripture Listen to it and hopefully it will heal Nothing is working out but what can I do about it To be honest I feel like I'm not allowed to get a shot at this A life of feeling fortunate a kiss from a set of lips A crowd losing it every time I spit A stock of papers like in those music clips A spouse to drag you out of your pit Out of touch with my element Or a message that's been heaven sent What about a boost in my confidence Maybe some screws which I lost back when I was too busy developing The truth is I'm sick of saying that I'm falling short on players Playing streams I hate it what if I lose my patience Dreams of rapping with the greatest But it seems I'm lacking angels So I give the devil my rap career and scream save it Let it happen, I'm waiting for ages Ready for changes like Tupac I'm too packed to be a laymen Hellraiser on a track but I can't get any traction Raging 'till the blaze fades Need to feel rejuvenated Someone is testing my patience Cause I'm losing hope When will I feel illuminated So I can see the road Need to feel rejuvenated Someone is testing my patience Cause I'm losing hope When will I feel illuminated So I can see the road In a black hole semi depressed, this is just a fraction Being clueless in this seat I'm sitting in Emotions run deep as I'm reflecting on the countless weeks Of rapping and searching for a fabulous incursion A checklist of dreams checked plus a beautiful person Having that would open my curtains Flashback to the present reality Witness the occurrence of the previous urges Disappear like a girl curving Exhausted of people testing my patience 'Bout to burst like a leaky faucet on a thousand bars Am I counting stars Cause it feels like I'm doing something indefinite With no solid outcome behind it All I got are my idols to give me guidance To the person listening even when it's difficult Don't forget things can change in an instant You gotta hope for something considerable Let's take a walk and see if my advice is practical Need to feel rejuvenated Someone is testing my patience Cause I'm losing hope When will I feel illuminated So I can see the road Need to feel rejuvenated Someone is testing my patience Cause I'm losing hope When will I feel illuminated So I can see the road