Ballad Of My Current State

And I just can't take it, its too much for me If I'm lucky I'll make it February This year is so stressful, it's making me fall Back into depression curled up in a ball And they always told me be good to yourself You'll meet the right people, break you out of that shell It's hard to realize it isn't always true But I guess that's a big part of growing up too I feel the pounding left with nothing Let me get back to this life I've been trying God damn it trying, let me grow on Now I'm staring at headlights as if they're a crowed Cheering me on yeah I'm making mama proud Of me and my talents, me and myself Will she listen to my songs and think I need help I feel the pounding left with nothing Let me get back to this life I've been trying God damn it trying, let me grow on And if I live my life the way that she wants Will I ever be happy or always feel lost Will I be more successful get higher pay I'm not sure what I want but I think that's okay I think thats okay Is that okay? Please be okay