Forgive

It's just my life man You live & you learn Don't ever judge a book by its cover man June 5th Tuesday 1998 It seems like a regular day but everything had changed It wasn't supposed to be this way think I was a mistake I grew up with my family but that's just where I stayed My mind's and my brothers shit was never just the same They was on that wild shit but all I did was think My mind turned grown by the time I was 8 I could understand the world but I couldn't get the hate Why's he always yelling mom it's cause he had a drink It's cause he couldn't take what the world put in his face I never understood till today so I forgave Have a smoke or a drink it's just a way to heal the pain My whole life I tried to change I always wanted different cause I couldn't take the same Momma I love you and dad it's okay Now I realize life won't always go your way Used to stay up late pray with tears in my face Hoping shit could change and my life will be great All my life I tried to change Momma I love you and dad it's okay Father I forgive you Ma I’m sorry for the issues My visions come and go but the dream stayed the same I cannot be regular I gotta make a change I gotta find a way out this house and make it safe I gotta help my brothers cause I know they feel like me I was born to get money gotta figure out which way Written in the stars so you know it’s meant to be Cut off my relationship it could be a mistake But I need to go alone need some time to just think It's just me and the lord I like to sit and conversate I can almost hear him whisper child it’s okay Just keep doing your thing you gon realize one day That all the fuckin pain molded you to be great No one lived your life so there’s no way they could see All the blessings in disguise like a mask on pain They was never around when you hopped the A train They was never there when you had nothing to eat They was never there for your first blunt to the face They say I did drugs all I did was concentrate The world's full of hate gotta look the other way I can never doubt myself yeah that’s the only way My whole life I tried to change I always wanted different cause I couldn't take the same Momma I love you and dad it's okay Now I realize life won't always go your way Used to stay up late pray with tears in my face Hoping shit could change and my life will be great All my life I tried to change Momma I love you and dad it's okay Father I forgive you Ma I’m sorry for the issues Couldn't take the shit you do But I know just what you been through