Misunderstood

Swimming and I'm living and I'm tryna find the difference Between love and all these drugs Yeah I know but I'm pretending I just wanna fit in but no I can't complete the sentences I know that I'm weird and ima need you not to mention it I can see it for myself I wanna say it but I keep it to myself When it comes just know I'm leaping to the help But I don't see nobody so I'm teaching it myself I ain't have a soul for me Yeah no hope for me I rock the boat to sleep So we could sleep together so soulfully And we can see the end of this lonely tree So lemme tell you how I want the answers I want money and a boat and we gon flood it up with dancers I want love and a Monroe I want a Marilyn no Manson I wish my grandma had the hope & will to try to beat the cancer I wish that I could see things different I wish I had the will to keep living I wish there was a bill that I could pay & all the pain of yesterday will get the hell up out my brain I wish I didn't see the things that's happening to me I wish it wouldn't be this way I'm packing up my things I'm laughing at my dreams Like who you thought you was They laughing at the things I rap about man what the f*ck This song's for the misunderstood For everybody who was told that they was up to no good All the real life soldiers growing up in the hood If no one ever said they love you then you misunderstood This song's for the people that hurt For everybody who just feel like they were pushed in the dirt If you having hate for dinner little sad for dessert I can make you to a winner I could hit the reverse It's all about the switch I gotta flick it on and off No I don't wanna take a pill I don't feel like nodding off And I know they gon hate me still I could see them all in awe I just wanna get paper I don't need no more awards I just wanna be happy I just wanna be sane I really want the chemicals to settle in my brain I know that I'm thinking right but something ain't the same I know I been sad before but know I'm feeling pain And I'm feeling regret I know the answers I act like I forget I'm busy landing cuz my life is like a jet And the engine breaking off but I don't even break a sweat The pressure don't get to me Sike I'm breaking down mentally Take a hike when it's cold up in the winter see My hearts been frozen it's a stone cold entity This song's for the misunderstood For everybody who was told that they was up to no good All the real life soldiers growing up in the hood If no one ever said they love you then you misunderstood This song's for the people that hurt For everybody who just feel like they were pushed in the dirt If you having hate for dinner little sad for dessert I can make you to a winner I could hit the reverse