Attachment

Words caught between mind and mouth Pressing hard against my throat If only I knew what they were I’m the only one who’d know It feels like I’m clawing But can’t get anything to budge I’m gasping for the distant air Breathing in the mounds of blood My eyes can’t help but burn Looking back at all the months You were never really there But your absence hurts so much I tend to shut the open doors I sometimes bite the hand that feeds But the thunderstorms I bring Are just a picture of my needs And he’s not there when I need him But he would know what to do He knows all the ins and outs of me And that’s the thing I can’t lose I try to think of other things But it keeps tugging at my sleeve It’s so hard to let him go When he’s all that I can breathe Until he’s happy with himself I will never be enough I can’t tell if I need him Or just anybody’s love I’m probably making this more painful I’d treat the devil like an angel You could put me through any kind of hell I’ll always be faithful Can’t wipe the memories away It’s me that I’d erase When I’m looking in the mirror I’m looking at his face