where that leaves me (stripped)

I looked in the mirror today for the first time In a long time I looked like I had something to say for the first time In a long time I've got scars on my knees from 2019 I've got letters in drawers, and fingers in doors I'm a paper thin kite on its way to the beach And I don't know where that leaves me I looked in the mirror today for the first time In a long time 2023 and I'm still in the backseat of my daydreams I'm a long way from home, but I'm not really sure where that is anymore, it's all just a blur - like my thoughts And I wonder why I never sleep And I wonder why I feel trapped but they say, "Your 20's are free!" Who am I anymore after trying to be Anything that the next person wants or believes? And I don't know where that leaves me I looked in the mirror today for the first time I saw red eyes 'Cuz what if who I am ended up on a shoreline That I can't find But I blinked and I saw a picture of me as a kid on a trip to Vegas (I think) And I realized that maybe it's okay to be In the middle of a road trip Still in progress And I'll find out where that leaves me