I'm so tired but I can't sleep

I wish I didn't have my bad side but oh well My way or their way I hope this doesn't make you leave What if I cross the line and you're not interested You don't want to be in my life I've lived my life for you Why does church feel like a contest of who's famous Silence makes me sick I'm in the middle of being okay and not good at all Struggling to get back to the place before my fall I'm gasping for air but I can still breathe Trapped in my dreams but I cannot sleep It's a range of so many extremes Here in the middle of being okay I still come unglued Cause somehow I know the answers I crave won't add up to you It's like striving for peace but still choosing war Don't wanna repeat my choice to ignore I don't know who I am anymore I'm caught in the in between Stuck in the same routine Life and death don't seem too different Day by day is incomplete Searching for what's left of me Faith and fear are close to connected Well That's one way to start an album