Heavy Little Things

I'm in my bed but I can't sleep 'Cause I see bears inside my dreams They're beautiful 'til they growl The floor is lava I might sink I haven't left my room for weeks I know I should've by now Am I holding on to heavy little things Or are they holding on to me? So sad I got everything that ever mattered And I'm drowning in it No one feels bad For a princess locked inside her tower But she's dying in it Oh I understand I know it's hard to see All these heavy little things I miss my dad but I can't call Sometimes I don't miss him at all But I feel guilty when I do The sun goes down Fifty seems colder Twenty five seems so much older When I'm up in my head and I'm So sad I got everything that ever mattered And I'm drowning in it No one feels bad For a princess locked inside her tower But she's dying in it Oh I understand I know it's hard to see All these heavy little things I take 'em with my morning tea I feel 'em when he looks at me I hear 'em in the songs I sing I see 'em in my dreams They find me when I'm happiest They exist to make me a mess They're creeping into everything These heavy little things I'm in my bed but I can't sleep It weighs a ton but I'm floating Somewhere far away I hope So sad I got everything that ever mattered But I can't carry it all No one feels bad For a princess locked inside her tower But I don't want to see her fall And if I'm holding on to heavy little things If I'm holding on to heavy little things If I'm holding on to heavy little things Can I still hold on to me?