she lives in me

Will the air know my lungs; When I crawl out of this stupor and into the sun? Will the sun know my name? Will she greet me with sunburn or with a warm embrace? Remembering the incline of the hillside, always a stride behind, forgetting the burn How can I bring her back? The caverns of my chest still echo with her laugh Surrendering the high tide of the shoreline for the lessons of time, forgetting to learn I see her in our pictures, hear her in my voice She lives somewhere inside me, lost and partially destroyed Who will answer when she calls? Howling with the wolves, only to get bitten by the dogs Will I recognize her fate? My future lies uncertain while hers lies awake Does she know who she'll become? If she knew what I do, would she stay or would she run? Assembling the remnants of remembrance, sending death threats to the child we were How can I bring her back? Doused in icy waters, drowned by the past Surrendering the resemblance of her essence to the masters of time When will we learn? I see her in the mirror, hear her in my voice She lives somewhere inside me, unaware she has a choice Who will hear her call my name? She left me there bleeding, but I should take the blame I see her in the people, hear her in the birds She lives somewhere inside me She sings along to these words I miss her, I will. I miss her, still. I miss her, I do. I miss her, I miss her I miss her, I will. I miss her, still. I miss her, I do. I miss her, I miss you You, you