subtleties

Making choices based on what is marketable Hearing voices scream and I'm unremarkable Begging softly for someone to see I've had a fever since August Cracking cases on questions about my killed innocence Second guessing, destined to guess again Guess I've never been one for subtlety Guess I'm guilty to someone I give good advice, so why can't I take it? Hiding away, feeling ashamed for letting it be If lying's my vice, what's the point in faking? Smile and nod, nodding and smiling, repeat Wrap your arms around me, run your hands right through my hair Playing make-believe, faking that I don't really care Yearning for something to stick around But I don't want it to last too long Trust me, baby, let's just skip the casualties Your features blurring into virtual reality I'll push away, breaking my own heart Just so it bleeds out a new song I give good advice, so why can't I take it? Running away, taking the blame for leaving it be If lying's my vice, what's the point in racing? Smile and nod, nodding and smiling, repeat I held a boy's hand once, told myself it wasn't real I held his gaze so long I started feeling how he feels He pulled away but lingered against my skin I'm suffocating the memory I built cities right on top of fault lines The ground starts to shake, buildings are breaking, what could it be? Each lover lays in fields infested with landmines Petaled and perfect until the first step, then I know what I'll see I ask for shit advice and I always take it Guess I've never been cut out for subtleties I'm a liar, love it when you believe me Smile and nod, nodding and smiling Smile and nod, nod yes, no smiling Smile and nod, nodding and smiling, repeat