Hatred

I'm afraid of self worth But it helps sometimes I'm numb inside But I feel the pain most I loved it once But I'm afraid I've lost it Am I loosin it How much time do I have If I died today Would you look my way I'm internally A fuckin mess I feel myself dying inside But there's hope for a cure just gotta wait for it It makes me nauseous too Until your here with me Am I loosin it How much time do I have If I died today Would you look my way I can see now why your hurting And I promise you That out all the pain you've been thru I still have love for For your broken heart Am I loosin it How much time do I have If I died today