Last Halloween

What if I'm just like everyone else That's high on my list of fears That I write in my notes at three AM While I re-evaluate my career I'm obsessed with control But I want to give it up so you can console me Need you to tell me the next move I should make And what would make me happy I don't know how I'm feeling So I can't explain it to you Scared that I'll start to feel again But you'll be gone by the time that I do (Time I do) I make choices that are bad for my health Maybe I want to shorten my years I'm not sure what to suggest Because my own decisions got me here I'm obsessed with control But I want to give it up so you can console me Need you to tell me the next move I should make And what would make me happy I don't know how I'm feeling So I can't explain it to you Scared that I'll start to feel again But you'll be gone by the time that I do I've been tired since I was fourteen I've been trying since last Halloween My thoughts are just a variation on a theme Reminding me I need to grow I don't know how I'm feeling So I can't explain it to you (I've been trying to) Scared that I'll start to feel again But you'll be gone by the time that I do (Time I do) I don't know how I'm feeling So I can't explain it to you (I've been trying since Halloween) Scared that I'll start to feel again But you'll be gone by the time that I do