Mess I've Made

I don’t think that I can pick myself up off this floor There’s a pain in my chest that cannot be ignored I’m breaking for the why and from the how Inside I am screaming but don’t make a sound Now all I want to do is be close to you I am coming clean Giving up to be safe in your arms Where light meets dark You come through Jesus Bringing beauty from this mess I’ve made Pretend laughs and tear stained eyes have become my new pace Is it obvious that I have not slept for days I don’t understand your will or your ways And I’m lacking perseverance and faith Now all I want to do is be close to you I am coming clean Giving up to be safe in your arms Where light meets dark You come through Jesus Bringing beauty from this mess I’ve made I wanna feel safe The only way out is coming to grips that I have to live with the truth It’s deeper than fake much more than a game and choices I cannot undo But I’m gonna face this cold and dark place till every secrets in view Even when I don’t know what else to do My rock bottom always leads me back to you Now all I want to do is be close to you I am coming clean Giving up to be safe in your arms Where light meets dark No place I’d rather be than with you here When I don’t know what’s next I will trust you know best You come through Jesus Bringing beauty from this mess I’ve made You are safe