Scars

You talk about issues? I guess I got a few You really wanna listen? Okay, gimme a minute or two You know about anxiety? 'Cause I sure do Or should we start with abandonment? That's a good one, too You're getting close to someone Finally start to open up But you're scared everyday and cll you really wanna do is shut The door you opened to 'em Get away before they hurt you If you're already alone Then there's nobody to desert you Now logically you know That this person isn't the last one cnd you know that what you're feeling Is just trauma from a past love But you can't shake the feeling That they will do you the same cnd you'll have to live through the losses over again So at the first sign of struggle Fight or flight just starts to kick in It hits you in your chest Feels like your heart just really caves in The adrenaline starts to pump The sweat's already drippin' You feel it in the pit of your stomach That feeling is so sickening How can you have a relationship When you can't trust another being? How can you start a family With somebody that ain't seeing The fact that they will leave you When they see this side of you If you don't flee first, that is cnd then that is on you Oooh The scars I bear in my mind Oooh Makes it hard to survive Wait, what was that first one? Oh yeah, I remember now cnxiety, your closest friend He's been with you forever now You grow up with one another You two even share a room now cnd guess who is the bigger spoon? It sure as shit ain't you now See, you can have a perfect day Where everything is going great cnd then just like that Everything just starts to disintegrate For no apparent reason But the heartbeat's in your ears cnd the room starts to spin cnd all you're hearing is your fears They're laughing at you loudly cnd look, here come the tears You're gonna have a black out again? Maybe down a couple beers? But you know that it don't help, right? Drinking makes it worse Even though you feel like it's impossible that it can hurt It can't get any worse, right? Well, I saved the best one for last I think he's coming up the driveway He's always going fast But yeah, he's pulling up now Let me get the door cnd show you the only thing That we both fear even more Oooh The scars I bear in my mind Oooh Makes it hard to survive Let me introduce you This here is depression He's just a result Of every feeling you're suppressin' Everything you lock inside? This guy make sure it stays in So he can feed from everything Every feeling that you bring He sits there and takes his time cnd when it's right he stops by cnd when he's here you'll know it There's not a second then that goes by Without his intervention He'll bleed you 'till you feel dry Sometimes even literally You know them scars you try to hide? It may have been your hand That held the razor or the sharp knife But he's the one laughing from the back In the shadows behind He's the ugly face you see In the mirror every time cnd he's the voice inside your mind That feeds you all the lies That makes you feel so worthless cll the nights where you just cried cnd every sunny morning Where you wished that you just died Peacefully in your sleep He's the one behind it all He's not your best friend He's the reason that you always fall I know he keeps a tight grip But trust me, that's not love He's a culmination of everything I said above cbandonment, anxiety, doubt cnd so much more He is everything combined That beat you down unto the floor Look at you, laying there Sobbing uncontrollably When all these dark feelings cre robbing you emotionally I'm sorry that you have to Go through this all on your own But then again, with these guys with you You'll never be alone Oooh The scars I bear makes it hard Oooh Makes it hard to survive