Ugly Feeling

When she smiles at me I gotta bite down deep And now she's stuck in my teeth It's an ugly feeling She's like an animal to me I feel ashamed The first to kill the first to feed It's embarrassing Can't seem to hide it but I don't want her to know If I say how I feel is it gonna change things If they stay the same is it too revealing If that's the truth then where does that leave me Cause right next to my heart is the ugly feeling Broke myself in little parts To pull my feelings out the dark I gave them the tools and Let them play operation When I sat down and shared my problems I studied them and their reactions Ain't it a shame I only talk to myself about this If I say how I feel is it gonna change things If they stay the same is it too revealing If that's the truth then where does that leave me Cause right next to my heart is the ugly feeling If I say how I feel is it gonna change things If they stay the same is it too revealing If that's the truth then where does that leave me Cause right next to my heart is the ugly feeling"