Sandpaper

Ughh! Okay hold on Can't wait to get high tonight Forget that I am dying Try on every shape and size my body's been Since I was born Drawing a map back to when The lack that I've decided Means more than what I've provided My whole life started the impostor syndrome Getting too coarse in my veins, sandpaper I don't wanna lose anything, yet I'm wavering Can't you see the parts of me I'm leaving behind Just to fit a mold that I know isn't mine And I don't wanna be on my deathbed crying out Come back, I need you I think I am dying (I think I am dying) I think I am dying (I am dying) I think I'm gonna lose my sunglasses this weekend Take away the lens, maybe then I can feel again I've heard it's all about distracting the mind So I'm watching movies well into the night Is it morning already? I didn't notice Drag myself from sleep Make a promise that's broken Before I leave my house Already bummed out the day Hard to keep my eyes on their road anyway When it's coarse in my veins, sandpaper I don't wanna lose anything, yet I'm wavering Can't you see the parts of me I'm leaving behind Just to fit a mold that I know isn't mine And I don't wanna be on my deathbed crying out Come back, I need you I think I am dying (I think I am dying) I think I am dying (I am dying) And I wouldn't be asking if I didn't see it serious XM radio playing the songs That we curated all our lives I won't force you into something you hate But once we were good And I swear we'll be great I'll do better! I promise listen please I'm folded at the hands Bending at the knees Bees baby buzz through my mind Pull the carpet out from under me And I will fall For you! Don't leave me in the dust I know I can be better than I was I can be better than I was For you! Don't leave me in the dust I know I can be better than I was I can be better than I was For you! Don't leave me in the dust I know I can be better than I was I can be better than I was For you! Don't leave me in the dust I know I can be better than I was I can be better than I was Memories course through my veins, writing papers I know that I lost you as the only thing I cared about Can't you see ? You're the part of me that I left behind Just to fit a mold that I know isn't mine And I don't wanna be on my deathbed crying out Come back, I need you I'm dying Oh I know I am dying