At 22

I wish I wasn't scared of the dark But I kept my night light on for so long Thinking it might light the way Inspire some real change But it never did And now I'm really fucked up Cuz I never grew up Half the time it just doesn't feel fair That everyone around me Holds the pen to their own story How do I get there? Cuz it's kinda hard to be this out of sorts at 22 When I look at you and see That you're just 18 And you're young and you're free You're all I wanna be Oh it's so cruel To be lost and stumbling down at 22 Shouldn't I know the way? Cuz my hair's getting gray And time's what I got to lose At 22 At 22 I wish I wasn't so insecure The bar's down on the floor Still I stay below And peek out at where The others have climbed Oh god, I'm so far behind And it hurts to know That everyone around me Lives their life while I just worry It doesn't feel fair, but I don't know how to get there Cuz it's kinda hard to still be alone at 22 when I look at you and see That you're just 18 and you're so happy Cuz you found your Prince Charming Oh it's so cruel To still be on my own at 22 Will I find him one day? Before all my hair's gray Cuz love's what I got to lose at 22 At 22 And I don't know what's worse The fear of getting hurt Or the fact that there's no one who even cares enough to hurt me I've wandered through this life alone Won't let anyone get close Will things change before I'm old? Cuz this is getting old Cuz It's kinda hard to still pray for change at 22 When I look at you and see That you're just 18 And your life's so clean Cuz you planned it perfectly Oh it's so cruel That I can't figure things out at 22 Will I grow wise one day? Before all my hair's gray Cuz hope's what I got to lose at 22 Baby I'm jealous of you at 22 Cuz I'm getting older and older at 22 Oh, I'm taking tips from you at 22 Just tell me what to do At 22