defective model

We can never go back Back to the way things were in a flash And though it makes me mad as hell I ruin everything for myself Telling you things I never told myself before Questioning life and wondering what was it all for I didn't want to lose you Have to find myself before the world loses me too Always needing more time, more space Don't beg or barter I already feel like, feel like a defective model Can't explain how I truly feel It's like I owe everyone an explanation for simply just existing And I shouldn't blame myself But I'm the reason you left me for someone else Telling you things I never told myself before Questioning life feeling like I've been here before I didn't want to lose you Have to find myself before the world loses me too Always needing more time, more space Don't beg or barter I already feel like, feel like a defective model You can paint me as the bad guy But I deserved a better goodbye I didn't want to lose you Had to find myself before the world loses me too Always needing more time, more space Don't beg or barter I already feel like, feel like a defective model