See You Next Week

She asks, "How are you?" I say, "Good", not true I've found overtime it gets harder to lie so I'll keep coming back to you Broken by design Not my job to find Try and be better, act so put together Used to freeze, now I'm willing to fight Let me talk through my mania, analyze each grain of sand, ending unplanned If I tell a joke will you laugh or sit forward and ask why that came to my head? Shoulda left it unsaid Listening to me while I'm listlessly waiting for answers that I wanna hear I'll see you next week, I promise I don't wanna disappear Please don't ask me why We don't have that kind of time To figure it out, wouldn't be here without that story from when I was nine Awake at night Lost my appetite My demons build towers, I sit up for hours finding these words to write Let me talk through my mania, analyze each grain of sand, ending unplanned If I tell a joke will you laugh or sit forward and ask why that came to my head? Shoulda left it unsaid Listening to me while I'm listlessly waiting for answers that I wanna hear I'll see you next week, I promise I don't wanna disappear I need those reminders so when I'm beside her I don't f*ck up I need those reminders, those daily reminders of self love Forget about love, I just wanna like myself Maybe a hug won't make her feel by herself We say the same things, I forget when I leave Can't ever just breathe She asks, "How are you?" I say, "Good", not true I've found overtime it gets harder to lie so I'll keep coming back to you